This past weekend held the last of five photoshoots for a portfolio building project that will hopefully stretch beyond the class that is assigning it and will turn into at least the foundation for a relatively big forward career jump. I am utterly exhausted. I am also blown away by the kindness of everyone who has made this possible.
So many friends carved time out of their busy schedules and gave their energy and focus to help me with this. I do not take one second of that time for granted. Other friends supplied resources that I would likely not be able to access easily which made elements of this project possible. Other friends faithfully lifted me up in prayer and sent encouragement, the Lord graciously answered those prayers with the amount of energy needed and enough relief from migraine issues to get the work done.
Collaboration is a beautiful thing to me. It is a challenge, but it is also a blessing that I have to rely on the abilities of others to make many of my images. There are times when more solitary processes appeal to me, I love the rare times when I am able to be completely on my own photographing nature, but something about human connection made between people with a camera in between them blows me away every time. In the images made over the last few weeks I can see my friendships, I can see the little nuances that make up parts of who they are as a person.
On the other end of this work sits the collected sum of the experience, and here is what I know: the learning curve becomes ever-clearer, this thing has been a challenge and a humbling reminder of how much further I need to stretch myself. There’s nothing like a rapid-fire busy period of working to expose weakness, but ultimately that is such a good thing as long as I seek to apply it. One of my favorite things about working as an artist is that I can honestly keep learning about it my whole life. There are so many facets, I’ve only found the very tip of the iceberg and that is absolutely awesome. I’m on the tail end of this project but I’m beginning to itch to do more to grow in the areas where I still struggle… after I sleep for awhile, of course.